Abandon me

Just so you know, I will not be online for reasons that are not so much personal as they are just lengthy.
I now have parental controls, so a lot of my sites are blocked.... Twitter, LJ, ect.
And my mom refuses to unlock them.
I can get on Neopets, Facebook, and my email, but my email is being stalked down.
And that's basically it.
....
danmit.

Instructions:
1) List 10 things you love about yourself.
2) List 10 things that make you feel good about yourself/make you feel sexy.
3) List 10 people (people you know or celebrities) that lift your spirits.
4) List 10 songs that make you feel good about yourself/make you feel sexy. (You don't have to upload or link to them, but if you want to, that's cool too.)

( i just do these to feel better, not like anyone i need to read them does )

I really wanna try my hand at bandom.
Except, of course, I have absolutely no creativity.
But on the brightside, I can't stop singing/listening to Nevershoutnever.
....
Pun intended?

Jon Walker.
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So I stole this from both coldmero and isuzuchan44 . Uhuh.

We all have songs that remind us of a certain time in our lives. Post the 5 songs that are or were important to you, with an explanation of what you associate with them. Nostalgia ahoy!

Lol,  jsyk I have a Twitter and I post cool stuff on it sometimes.
@automaticeyes12
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Last night was the night.
Mhm.

( I SAW WILLIAM BECKETT'S FACE LINES UP CLOSE. )

So pissed.
Seriously.

My parents have been using my camera because they don't have one.
Um, yeah, they do, as I found out today.
They just use mine because both of our cameras go through batteries like I devour chocolate.
And I pay for the batteries for my own camera.
So not on did my parents waste money on buying that camera, but I'm wasting money on buying so many extra batteries.

So I broke my camera... haha, yeah, I know.
I told my mom that I needed to get a new one before Fall Ball.
She said, " Oh no, use mine! "
The perfect phrase would've been " what the fuck ", but hey, she's my mom.

So I try her camera... it has crappy settings, crappy screen resolution, and yaddayadda.
I can't use that in the lighting of a concert, I could barely use my own.
Then my mom says, " Borrow one of your brother's or sister's! "
My brother would not trust me with his precious technology.
My sister would pretend like I didn't ask or forget.
So I am camera-less for the show.

And then my field trip for tomorrow got cancelled, last minute.
Again, what the fuck.
We got a message on the phone, and whoa.
Nope, I have to learn tomorrow, instead of seeing actors pretending to be Indians.

Plus, I'm as sick as hell.
But that's nothing new.

On the bright side...
5 days.
I saw This Is It today.
And my mom is making cookies.
Yes.

I'm sorry.
This whole rant was a result of my PMS-y bitchiness.
And Erica kept me up past midnight with the guilt card.
So tired, bitchy Nikki.
...
Someone needs to teach me how to do that cool thing where you have a link and it leads to the whole post.

Kayso.
I'm REALLY happy.
:D
Even though I'm not sure whether or not to be.
She's too adorable...

Ohjeez I got a Stratocaster, too.
Fuck yeah, good mood.

I haven't updated in a bit.
Pft, but it's not like more people that Melissa and Simone read this, and I talk to them outside of here too.
♥
But anyways.

Positive - I found a dress for Fall Ball.
Negative - I still have to wait 13 days.

Positive - I have so many good friends that aren't judging me.
Negative - Although I have one who means more to me than the rest who is making no move to clear things up.
Positive - I don't really care. I'll give her the time she needs to think about whatever she needs to.
Negative - I'm not sure if she's even thinking about what I think she is.

Positive - I was in a really creative mood today.
Negative - I didn't write anything.

Positive - I went to get my sports physical.
Negative - I need 3, possibly 4 shots. One of which being tetanus.

Positive - I made it into the dance.
Negative - I hurt all over because my choreographer is crazy.
Positive - I love the song.
Negative - It was stuck in my head all day.

So there you go. Quick update on my life.
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I thought she was there to help me.
Then she just goes a becomes a jerk about the whole thing.
She probably didn't mean to, but it still hurts.
She says that this girl ruined her life.
Her comment was pretty close to bringing mine crashing down.
Yeah, I'm overreacting.
<|3

So I really feel like writing.
I don't think I'm going to take a try at bandom, though.
I'mma stick with my trusty Harry Potter x TAI clash.
:D

I feel terrible, to be honest.
It's just a lot on me, the tiniest things make me feel bad.

Once I prank called I guy that I liked... about 3 years ago, for the hell of it.
I couldn't eat for two days, I felt so guilty.

I just wasted two of my friends days.
And they got nothing out of it.
I didn't get what I was looking for.
Neither did they.

Now one isn't responding to me.
The other doesn't want to go dressy anymore, but she wants to go "fucking crazy".
I just don't know.

LJ is pretty hard to figure out, tbh.
So I'm gonna be a fail for right now.

Maybe some bandom or random little vents in the future.

♥